"So much held in a heart in a lifetime. So much held in a heart in a day,
an hour, a moment. We are utterly open with no one in the end—not
mother and father, not wife or husband, not lover, not child, not
friend. We open windows to each but we live alone in the house of the
heart. Perhaps we must. Perhaps we could not bear to be so naked, for
fear of a constantly harrowed heart. When young we think there will come
one person who will savor and sustain us always; when we are older we
know this is the dream of a child, that all hearts finally are bruised
and scarred, scored and torn, repaired by time and will, patched by
force of character, yet fragile and rickety forevermore, no matter how
ferocious the defense and how many bricks you bring to the wall. You can
brick up your heart as stout and tight and hard and cold and
impregnable as you possibly can and down it comes in an instant, felled
by a woman’s second glance, a child’s apple breath, the shatter of glass
in the road, the words I have something to tell you, a cat
with a broken spine dragging itself into the forest to die, the brush of
your mother’s papery ancient hand in the thicket of your hair, the
memory of your father’s voice early in the morning echoing from the
kitchen where he is making pancakes for his children."
— Brian Doyle, "Joyas Voladoras"
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